Rock Bottom

 Rock bottom is a place no one really wants to be at. At the time it sucks and you're sitting there gazing around you as you realize that this is it, rock bottom. You feel worthless,  everything is hopeless. Its a terrible position to be in when it occures.

 Being at rock bottom literally makes you reach deep inside yourself and find out what strenght and fortitude you truely possess, and then have to use it. But on the same token, no matter where you go from there in life, its a better situation then what you were previously in, and it makes you appreicate it more when you rise above that point and actually start doing better.

Being at rock bottom gives you no where to go but up. There is no other direction to go. You either improve or at this point you wind up dead, by your own hand or another's, depending on the circumstances.

I've hit so many rocks in my life. Literally and figuritively, and more then once in my life. Its never been due to drugs or alcohol though. Usually just a series of bad luck, and I wind up having to move on, relocate, and usually losing my job or my home. I've been homless twice in my life, literally pitching a tent for shelter and using a fire for warmth and food. Its actually not so bad, but I prefer the comfort of a home.

My life feels like a series of failures. But those expeirences, those failures are what forged me into the person that I am today. No matter how hard you crash and burn, its the ability to raise from the ashes and fly again that matters. dont give up.