Just once. I want to go to bed without feeling worthless and depressed. Without constantly turning the day over in my mind and not thinking of what I should have said or done differently.
Just once I don't want to regret my choices and my actions. I would just like to rest.
This is a rough night. There's nothing actually wrong at the moment. I just feel horrible. Depression sucks. Its like having a constant companion with you all the time that you'd rather never have met, but can't get rid of.
It whispers things in your ear you don't want to hear. So often and so many times that you slowly begin to wonder what's actually true anymore. All my faults, mistakes and failings are always roaming through the back of my mind.
Does anything I do with my life even matter?
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