dark night of the soul

My soul is tired. My heart is heavy, and my mind is full of sadness.

I have to try to find a way out of this feeling of utter emptiness. Tonight's pain is soul crushing and makes me wonder for the millionth time why I even try at this game called life. So full of pain both physical and emotional.

Nothing good in my life ever lasts. So fleeting and quick to end. So many memories twinged with the sadness of a loss of something I never had to begin with. I'm so tried of these thoughts and memories that wander through my mind in the deepest of the dark nights.