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Friends ignoring me and constantly fighting w my boyfriend is really beginning to wear me down. I miss people coming over who actually want to hang out with me. I miss conversations and laughter, cooking dinners and sitting by the fire.

I just miss my friends, and I'm tired of being ignored for multiple months in a row. I can continue to miss folks. I'll heal eventually and recover. It's one of the few skills my childhood taught me to do over and over again.

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I am sitting here, listening to angry music just to drown out the sounds of my boyfriend's angry screaming rant. I just keep thinking that I'm drowning in dispair.

Is this what the American Dream feels like? Drowning in debt and wondering if you can keep the job long enough to pay it off? I'm just trying to etch out a meager existance that I never asked for.

My boyfriend and I are fighting about everything again. I wonder how long until he gets sick of it and leaves. Rather be homeless then with me I guess. I'm getting so used the rejection I just expect it anymore. I'm so tired of the screaming, the stress, and the sheer anger he expresses.

I haven't felt this stressed and frustrated in a long time. im so exhausted and hitting my limit.