I wasted a long time begging for full time work. Now I'm at a job that takes longer to get to and is a lot more boring, but it's full time and more pay. Screw Casey's. I should have left it for a better position a long time ago, back when my friends all quit. Honestly I wish I'd never gotten the job in the first place. It lead to a lot of heartache and self doubt, not to mention expense, and shattered my mental health
I'm kinda done with being taken advantage of and feeling worthless. I'm only good enough for people when they can get something from me it seems.
I hope this new house works out and I can get the problems fixed without breaking the bank. I am scared of this new adventure, but looking forward to it I guess. At least it has most of the things I wanted.
Maybe I will finally have a place I can enjoy living in, instead of haunting.
Man I'm really broken and depressed and trying to think positively about my future is difficult.
Things will get better, no matter how hollow those words feel now. At least I have a job and my own home. A working car and someone who cares about me at home.
